BIG WOWWW!
its been ages huh? hahaaa
well, i'm currently having my HOOLIDAYYY and i have NO TIME for bloggin , facebookin and anything related to it. i am giving my full time on babysitting my baby aka noty boy aka damian aka bdk manja.. hohoo
i am happy with the holiday. but at the same time it makes me worry. .
why?
becausee

I AM GETTING FATT!!
for God sake, why cant I have HIGH METABOLISM type of body so that i can munch anything i want without worrying about my belly and hips and butt and arms and thighs and chin and etc etc..??
huhuuu
i love the holiday food, even if its just a simple breakfast with tasteless nasi goreng and kopi O . or lunch with tangoh uvek kelei or dinner with babi/keli/ayam soup only. hooohoo.
anyway, since ive tasted most of the home-cooked food already, so now, i'm trying to control a lil bit of my appetite. .nanti jd tong drum kan susah. hahaa.

i am enjoying this holiday very verry veryy much!!

i will always believe in u Father

"When a man takes one step toward God, God takes more steps toward that man than there are sands in the worlds of time."

my dream guy

fancy him sooo muchhhh
go go mr kaka. . ^__^

holiday is coming!

YESSSSS!!
3 days to go!
finally, its the end of my 1st year in uni!
thank God for being with me from the start.
it felt like just yesterday, i was smiling to strangers and introduced myself to them.
most of them are my frens now. heheee.
aww come on bulan, why talking the nonsense?
still left another 3 years for u here, in unimas.
tiba2 nak emo2 pasal leaving uni for holiday ni kenapa?
hahaaa.

nola, i'm just trying to appreciate my alma mater ni ba.
mana tau dpt berkat for my final tis sem. anyway, talking about final, 3/4 of it is done. though not satisfactorily, but at least, i din left my papers clean and white. at least, i did scribble , though it might be nonsense, but , also called ANSWERS on my papers. hehee.
but, honestly, i did my VERY BEST already. i dun play2 with these kind of stuff ok? pointers and grades are IMPORTANT to me. but, i know, i cudnt be sure about the results. i leave these in God's hands. of course, i DO want him to grant my wish, that is to get higher pointer this time.

and also, frankly, i can say that i improved this time. i mean, excluding my final. so far, my carry marks especially in MEB and math and EM were quite relieving. my fren, apis even mentioned it to me. he said i showed quite a good performance this sem.
hermm, thank u apis. but, i still cant "phewhh" just yet. i'm not that confident about my final. kinda tough i might say. at least i hv to get afew As' for the 3 credits subjects. huhuuu.

tomorrow is jess's bday. hohoo.
HAPPY BDAY GAL. may God bless ya and may all ur wishes wud cum true... hihiii
jgn nakal2 lagi my baby no 1 ni..
hahaaaaaa

owya, it's confirmed already. next sem, we'll be staying in the same apartment, and the same room! yahooo!! i AM WAY BEYOND HAPPY to know about this.
our apartment ni dah jadi macam family dah. really like sisters. we were comfortable with each other. even ada my frens, like kak mas, said that, she's amazed to see how close we are wif to each other. next sem, dapat lagi stay sama. yeayy!

hurmm, i think, i'm the first one going back home. of course, i'm all alone this time . malas nak kacau amai and uwek . amai did offer to fetch me up. but to think back, its been a few times already , and i feel guilty pulak nak menyusahkan dorg. lagipun,
I AM A BIG GIRL NOW. come on., xkan naik bus pun susah. hahaa. its just that, i'm still worry bout my safety jakla. if naik plane, i x kisahla. if bus ni, takut sikit la. huhuu.
May God be with me. betul2 x sbr nak jumpa damian ni. huhuuu.

okay, goin to take a nap now. i woke up at 4 this morning, trying to absorb as much as i can for thermo. wic end up to be quite dissapointing (blame me for this cuz i din read the revision papers properly) but hopefully mr nazeri wud at least give marks for my jalan kira. huhuuuuu.

NAP!

for u

I never need to see the sun again, there's enough light in your eyes to light up all the world.

my own edition.
ive been posting a few in my tumblr,
anyway, just check these out~
=)

final again

aww
2 more weeks till holiday..
and i'm freaking excited rite now. i cant wait to set my foot at home. huhuu
anyway, exam mood is on now. ive sat for HE yesterday. the questions were bearable.
and i'm preparing for maths this comin friday. huhuuu.
1st n 2nd ODE are goin to be my bestfrens in this few days.
and also next week is going to be a lil bit tougher.
with organic chemistry, MEB, thermo and EM.
huhuu
God bless me..
He's all I need now.. may He show me the way, guide me through this challenging moment of life. I wanna get more than 3.00 this time. I have to prove to myself that I can get more than I expected. huhuuu.

i'm missing damian !!
cant wait to have him in my arms..
to kiss his cheeks , to squezee him..
huhuuuu
baby, i'll see u in two weeks time~
=D

the unspoken love
it is real
it floats.
it dances. it plays.
by itself.
it hid itself very well.
never appear in front of others.
only in the hearts of the lovers.
it's full of mystery.
that takes time to be revealed.
will it be as sacred as it seems?
Let's leave it to God's hands
as He is the one who will show it. reveal it.
making it clear to the two hearts.
that they are always meant to each other,
that the hidden love will reveal itself at the right moment,
and the right time,
at the right place,
and everything falls perfectly .
as these two hearts meet.
and declare the secret love.
and sharing their dreams. forever..
and ever
and ever

when i see you smile

owkey~
the 2nd week after holiday.
and the 1st week of march.
hohooo.
time do run faster today than yesterday.huhuuu.
anyway, last week as i mentioned, i sat for a few tests and quizzes.
math was kind of stressing. i managed to answer all of the questions though.
there were 4 of them. but today, miss told us that 99.99% of the class didn't get the last question right. noe y??
just simply because we didnt understand the technical english in that question.
we didnt get what were the hints given in the question and thus misinterpreted it.
huhuuu.
i thought i did it right but guess it wasn't my luck.
but i really hope the 1st few questions would help me. . huhuhuuuu

and chemistry... . well, i've no comment on that.
could say it's not that stressing, but i don't know how dr. ruby's goin to mark it. . cuz i did stuck on a few simple questions. i noe but i dun remember it! that's the problem there.
huhuuu.
hopefully it's not goin to be as bad as what i'm imagining. .

last friday was a public holiday. . so, a few of my buddies asked me to go for an outing.
guess where we went??
jong's crocodile farm!! hahahaaa
the place was not that exciting but the frens were~
hahaaa. we had fun after all those bizzare tests and quiz. . huhuuu..
after "washing" our eyes with the crocs, alligators, kambing, birds etc, we went for dinner somewhere in town. . then we went for a movie. we had a small argument on what movie to watch. . ahahaa.
and so we end up choosing "the book of eli".
it was an interesting one cuz the theme of the movie was more about bible and christianity. it's about a man who is on his journey to a safe place where he can make sure the bible won't fall into irresponsible hands because that king james version of bible is the last copy on earth after a very very bad war/disaster happened on the earth that killed most of human kind and those who are alive live in an uncivilized manner.

so .. this week is going to be rough too. with tests..
and a lil bit of assignments i might add. .
but then. no reason to be complaining about it.
let's face it with faith. . may God bless us all~
peacee~=D

reflections of life

today, stpm result wud be out. hemmm, i hope ayak, ungan and my other stpm frens wud get great rsults. hopefully better than me. hohoo.
i heard ayak n ungan want to apply for teachers. they had apply for UPSI and i heard ayak wants to try USM too. i pray so that they cud get watever they want. . hopefully there wont be any disappointment like wat i've been through before. huhuu. some people might think i'm still a smart , intelligent student like what i used to be. but then, time can change people. that's what happened to me. at least, that's what i think happened to me. huhuu
but then i'm not saying that i'm giving up. i'll try my best to do better especially in my academics.
cuz i'm no pretty. i'm no attractive.
but then i hope people cud see me for my brain n my inside. that's wat i'm always trying to polish up. at least people wont look me down just because i dun have the look.
hohooo. and yeah, as for my friends. i hope they can achieve watever their dreams are.

cuz we came from the average families. we are neither more nor less than other families. so it's like our families really depend on us to chnge things a bit. so that our situation wont fall into the less families. im not saying that we are not being thankful for what we have now. i think our condition now is already enough for us to survive. but of course we want to have sumthing better rite. at least, next time, i want to see my parents goyang kaki and every month just receive money from me like what i do now. heheee
i think all of us think of the same thing right?
and i believe that's what my frens think too. tats y i hope that those stpm frens of mine cud get great results and get great uni and achieve their dreams. .

and as for me i'm goin to continue this journey. though i used to fall a bit last time and my path is actually a bit out from what i've always planned, but i noe, as long as i'm not giving up continuing this(since it's also directing to the same destination), i'm going to be there soon. in God's blessing. i believe nothing is impossible ..
isnt it?
heheee

and as always, i hope my Father will always bless me and this journey of mine.
Amen~













GAMBATEHH!!!!

sweet yet busy holiday

2nd day after chinese new year holiday ended.
huhuhuuu.
i want more holiday!!!

anyway,i came back to unimas a day earlier . the reason is because this week is goin to be my hell week. i just finished doing the material balance test yesterday which turned out to be quite relieving, though i'm unsure how's my result going to be like. and tomorrow i'll be sitting for the organic chemistry test and the next day would be the math quiz which covers all the 1st ODE and its application. pheewww~

and it ain't stop till this week. next week is going to be HELLer than this week. we'll be having another make-up quiz for material balance on monday, thermo test on tuesday, math test on thursday if i'm not mistaken and HE test on friday. all this info excludes the tutorials, assignments and lab reports! and i have volleyball practice every evening for the upcoming inter-college sports carnival!
ARRGGHHH!!

it's super duper pack!!

anyway, i want to talk a lil bit bout my holiday last week. overall, it was a sweet yet quite busy holiday. right after i reached bintulu, amai brought us back to highway cafe(uwek's cafe). the next day, after we visited ingau and uku epik at UJ, we went to Lg Urun for the 'Majlis Kahwin mengikut Adat Kenyah' of Amai Akang. He invited a lot of relatives from uwek's side. All from Miri, Lg Selatong and Tanjung and from some other places . I din recognize most of the faces but they knew me. hahaa. bad of me huh? din recognize my own relatives. and i get to meet most of my cousins. My my, they've turn into fit, tall and strong handsome young men now. as for the girls, yeah i can see the ladies side of them now. not the childish attitude as what we have been a long time ago. but it's good to be reunited with them again. we talked, joked around and all.
but most of the time, we helped the adults preparing for the wedding. i spent most of the time in the kitchen, doing chores here and there. i din have the chance to witness the wedding when it was held. huhuuu. can u imagine, i din even have time to shower.
as soon as i woke up, i only had a few moments for breakfast before started to do the kitchen stuff on the day. cuz u noe, we had to serve food for the guests.
fuhh. it was very tiringgg~

and then. on monday, the whole big family went for a picnic . there were 4 to 5 cars used and uwek's lorry was also used to bring us. imagine how big our family are. hahaaaa. we had fun of course. the party din end there just yet. the adults continued the fun after we reached home from the picnic. they partied till midnight i tell u. these adults pun lebih2 pulak i tgk.

ok, end story of my amai akang's wedding . the next event i had last week was damian's birthday party. of course his bday was a few weeks before but i requested from uwek to wait for me to come back . hehehee. the party was held in the evening but we had to start prepare from early in the morning . uwek prepared the list of dishes and we had to help her doing it. we made fried fillet in sauce, sotong goreng chilli kering, BBQd wings, mixed vege, fried bee-hon, watermelon pudding and pitoh(kayan-kenyah's popular nasi pulut in banana leaves/any other accepted leaves)heheeee.

it was great as well. but i cant get rid of the tiredness doing all the stuff. huhu. but then, who cares about being tired if u can have fun doing those stuff kan? hehee. hemmm, yang penting, i miss my sweet moments spent together with my family.

sometimes, i feel grateful that i could get the nearest uni from home. i think as i grow up, i cant leave my family aside, i cepat sangat rindu dengan they all. not like when i was in skool, though i was far in semenanjung, i din really miss them like what i feel now. huhuu . maybe because of damian's presence in the family kot. hehehh.


anyway gotta go. remember my list of the upcoming tests n quizzes up there??
hohooo.
MAY GOD BLESS ME, AMEN~
=D

sakura ceria~

joined the sakura ceria event yesterday,
hohooo
started the event wif senaman aerobik followed by jog around the unimas lake.
fuhh pagi2 dah tired gila babi.
thank god, after tat, dpt rest cuz we just need to watch other frens buat sukaneka.
heheh.
btw, it was fun though cuz there were a few funny stuff happened.. hehe
we got to rest aroun 10 sumtink till 1.30 pm.

then we attended the afternoon session of the event.
dorg polah pertandingan teka lagu and 'what's next?' hohooo
then barulah 'makeover' punya pertandingan started.
i joined tauu~
they gave us 3 themes.
1) spooky
2) oldies
3) clown
punya theme. so we were asked to make up our team member based on the theme given.
kak mas n fariza jd my gang and kitaorg dah awal2 set theme mana kitaorg bawa.
kak mas became the clown, fariza bcame the oldies and i jd spooky person.

hoho. that was the 1st time i rasa i pandai make-up org. cuz everythin was done as quick as possible. and we din have tym to use brushes., semua pakai jari ja. hahaa
and guess what??
WE WON!!!
ahahaahaa

it was amazing!
hahaaa
i thought it wud be simple only but then sum of them said the effects were quite real.
hahaaa

haha thats me being a ghost!
i was being 'make-over'ed by kak mas n fariza.
hahaa FUNNY!

and that's fariza becomin a nenek.
lucuu!!

kak mas and her clown character.
kinda suit her cuz she is small and kepala pun kecik je.
sgt comel for a clown .. hohooo



happy sangat cuz dpt menang the contest.
hehe apa yang penting, cop kolej ada dapat lebeh sket,.. hikhikkk
btw GTG. muahahhhhh
xoxo


_*SERAM*

UNICS christmas and new year dinner

venue : pennview
date : 23 january 2010
time : 8-11 p.m.

had a great time wif buddies that nite.
though a few incidents happened .. hehee
wanna noe wat is it?
lets browse thru a few moments we captured together first~
8)

photo taken at the livin room~
i was supposed to wear black dress.
but cant find any . hohooo

3rd course pic.
heheee.
3 org 1st year, 3 org 2nd year..
ngam2..

cheersss~
our last glass before we dash of the party.
heee

ouhh. jane's boy was there too together wif his buddy.
they are the only guys in our group. hehhhe

reached sakura around 12.30 like that.
very tired and sleepy.
but we really enjoyed the night.
hahhaaa

owkeh.
noe what, we were late for the dinner xtually.
they started at 7.30 but we reached there around 8.15 sumthin.
and then, after we registered with the receptionist, we were brought to our table.
but unfortunately, our table is taken.
and there was no empty table left.
imagine that we need to stand in the middle of people who were enjoying their 1st course while waitin for them to search for our table.
huhuu

and then, one of the ajk came and suggested that we split and sit with other groups.
it's not that we dont want to mix with others but for sure we wont enjoy the dinner if we have to sit wif others that we dont even know. plus, we booked the table a few weeks before. it's absurd if we cant have our own table.
of course it's not the ajks fault. maybe somethin went wrong and they dint realise it.
i pity the lady who was helpin us. she's so stressed and apologised a few times. hoho

at last, i think the ketua kot.. she talked to the manager and requested for another table for us. hehehhh
thank god, the manager was not fussy or anythin.
so they prepared another table for us . we were satisfied though it is too near to the kitchen.
but never mind that.
as long as we can sit together, other things dint matter much.

and yeah, it was great.
jane was very lucky that night cuz she kena lucky draw.
and then jess plak kena asked to perform on the stage..
she had to dance.. hahahaaaa

another sweet memories of me and frens~
that makes my life even more beautiful~
thank you Lord!!
x0xo

some random activities.

hemm~have i told u.

jojo brought a telly 4 us. hehehh.
it's kinda small but enuf for all of us to get entertained.
8)
pics ive taken wif jess n jane as the background..ngee!
wif the telly in front of us.. ;D

ok. we were damn boredddd~ hahahhh
**

o yeah. yesterday we went shopping AGAIN at boulevard.
the main purpose was to buy masks for the coming dinner. its a masquerade dinner.
we decided to buy the same type and colour. ngeee.
i drove the car on our way ter.
and j0jo drove us back to campus.
the others commented that,
i drove too fast n rough.
n jojo was kinda slow and steady.
but bof of us did funny stuff that made the others din even care to turn on the radio. hahahhh!
FUNNY but FUN!




the 3 zorros. hahaa. these peps cant even leave their camera. hohooo.





soon to be lord of the ring's actresses. hahaa.
but i wonder if hello kitty is also accepted in it.
muahahaaaa.





i like tis photo. but my zit is obvious. huhuu.








while waiting 4 sumone paying her stuff.
sumone=jojo.
8)








all of us . emm except for kk. hehhehh
she was doin her hair at that moment.
all looked satisfied after getting their respective mask.
hohooo.








do u notice? a bit of my hair is green?
yep. i highlited it last week. hehheee.
because i cant stand seeing all of em did it.
so i chose my colour and made mine. hehheeee.
but lots of em like it.
i dun know, but is green nice?

huhuuu.
well. thats ol.
im goin to sleep noww. tomoro got class!!

steamboat party for new year.

kenangan tym new year.
we made a small steamboat party.
ngeeeehh~~
me.kak mas.jess
seronokkk~
though it's very simple.

kas mas tgh testing makanan

nyum nyum ~~

lil' steamboat~~

hahaa. suma masuk .. campur2 sumaaa~~


~hepy new year~
hahaa
terlambat sudeee~
8)

do u support gays n lesbians?

my english lecturer in kml used to discussed about this topic to us before.
gays and lesbos?
are they being accepted in the society?
is it wrong for them to have their unique relationships?
is it illegal for them to be together with their chosen soul mates?

check this out !

http://tiltedworld.org/category/lgbts/bisexual/

http://tiltedworld.org/category/life/love-and-relationships/

http://edition.cnn.com/2009/US/10/11/U.S.gay.rights.rally/

http://tiltedworld.org/2009/01/18/what-about-homosexuality/


personally i think tat there's no reason for us to look at these people with negative perspective.
they are human like us too.
they want to be happy like us too.
so they have the same rights like the straight people have too!
and they deserve the equality in the society..

well, what would u say?

solar eclipse

i think i forget to mention about it yesterday.
on the 15th january 2010, there was a solar eclipse which they said to be the longest one and very rare.
because it is predicted tat the only time tat the eclipse will show again is in the next 1000 years.
whooaaa~~

we wanted to watch the eclipse just now, when we were in thermo class.
but we cudnt see it clearly due to the thick clouds. plus we didnt have the appropriate stuff to watch it.
aduii! sayangnya..
after this, cannot watch anything like this oredi.
hemmm~

based on the news ive read, the eclipse was in a ring-like shape and the best place to watch it was maldives where it stayed a lil bit longer ter.. hohoo. .
i wish i cud watch it just now.. hemmmm~



*the look of the sun in an area in China*



*the ring-like shape of the sun*
*it's unique!*
*can i make a wish??*=D


hemmm~ though i cudnt see it, but at least, i was in the world when it happened. hahaa.
so much about eclipse. ..
hahahaa

ps: pregnant women, they say u cant go out during eclipse. y??? hhuuuu

Random joke~=p

Four Catholic ladies are having coffee together, discussing how important
their children are.

The first one tells her friends, "My son is a priest. When he walks into
a room, everyone calls him, Father."
The second Catholic woman chirps, "Well, my son is a bishop. Whenever he
walks into a room, people say, Your Grace."

The third Catholic woman says smugly, "Well, not to put you down, but my
son is a cardinal. Whenever he walks into a room, people say, Your
Eminence."

The fourth Catholic woman sips her coffee in silence. The first three
women give her this subtle, "Well...?"

She replies, "My son is a gorgeous 6' 2", hard bodied, well-hung, male
stripper. Whenever he walks into a room, women say, My God."

the blood.

One night in a church service a young woman
felt the tug of God at her heart.

She responded to God's call and accepted
Jesus as her Lord and Savior.

The young woman had a very rough past,
involving alcohol, drugs, and prostitution.

But, the change in her was evident. As
time went on she became a faithful
member of the church.

She eventually became involved in the
ministry, teaching young children.

It was not very long until this faithful
young woman had caught the eye and
heart of the pastor's son.

The relationship grew and they began
to make wedding plans.

This is when the problems began.

You see, about one half of the church
did not think that a woman with a
past such as hers was suitable for
a pastor's son.

The church began to argue and fight
about the matter. So they decided to
have a meeting.

As the people made their arguments
and tensions increased, the meeting
was getting completely out of hand.

The young woman became very upset
about all the things being brought up
about her past.

As she began to cry the pastor's son
stood to speak. He could not bear the
pain it was causing his wife to be..

He began to speak and his statement was this:

"My fiancée's past is not what is on
trial here. What you are questioning is
the ability of the blood of Jesus to
wash away sin. Today you have put
the blood of Jesus on trial. So, does
it wash away sin or not?"

The whole church began to weep as
they realized that they had been
slandering the blood of the Lord Jesus Christ.

Too often, even as Christians, we bring
up the past and use it as a weapon
against our brothers and sisters.

Forgiveness is a very foundational
part of the Gospel of our Lord Jesus Christ.

If the blood of Jesus does not cleanse
the other person completely then it
cannot cleanse us completely.

If that is the case, then we are all in
a lot of trouble..

What can wash away my sins?

Nothing but the blood of Jesus! End of case!!!!

"Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and he
shall sustain thee he shall never suffer
the righteous to be moved."
Psalm 55:23