_if i_

if i have the guts
if i have the courage
if i n0e tis is rite
if i n0e tis w0nt hurt us
if i cud talk t0 u wif0ut worrying b0ut 0thers
if i cud wink at u wif0ut hurting others
if i dun realize tat there's a b0undary between us
if i'm n0t sure tat we w0n't last l0ng
if i'm n0t afraid of this feeling

i wud abs0lutely
tell u
tat i l0ve to b wif u..

i din noe tat i was tat lucky..hahaaa

the 0ther day . when i was at h0me, i dig in my 0ld stuff n n0e wat i saw??
taddaaaaa~~~

i've been c0llectin afew medals of my 0wn ol tis while xtually..
whheww. lets check it 0ut~



hahaaa. tis medals are d 0ldest punya. all netball.
i g0t the bronze punya back whn i was in primary 5. 1st tym wakil skola. ngeee.
the silver one was rceived a year later .oso wakil sk0la.
n the gold one i dpt tym wakil daerah. huu.
i f0rgot 1 medal. for handball. kt0rg dpt gold jg.. but dint get to wakil daerah after tat. huuuu








haaa. ni pla my medals f0r x-country.. wuaaa. paling penat wa ckp. dala kna paksa masuk. .
but then 0ut of the 5 yrs i masuk, adala sbji 2 habuan ak. huhu.
tp bof 6th n 7th place. huaaa. bersyukur la nakk..





huhu.these tw0 pula my medals f0r swimming carnival. . haha.
but then bof bukan individual events. cuz for individual i salu dapat either the last or 2nd last .. wueee







these is my fav event. relay. heee. cuz i dpt g0ld everytym i t0ok tis.=)
th0 i noe i din help tat much to get it. haahaa. i alwiz dpt team yg speedy. kiki.
4x400m .. 4x100m .. n 4x200m.









haa~yg ni plak random events. ak pnh dpt g0ld n br0nze for javelin thr0w..
silver n bronze for shot putt..
n br0nze for high jump. hee(tis one memang lucky win laa~)







huaaa. yg ni pla the most unbelievable medals yg i dpt.
myb my lucky wins jg kot cuz fizikally i dun tink i l00k like i shud get tis medals.
im so not the sprinter type..
btw, i dpt silver 2 years in rows for 200m for under 18 gals. thnks to my stamina tat tym. hahaa.
xtualy thnks to squash laa. cuz i byk praktis squash f0r stamina.
n oso i got br0nze for 100m under 18 gals. heee. pelik..




last but not least . g0ld for tenis under 18 gals for mssd bentong. ngeee
but i dun realy favor tis one cuz memang confirm lucky win ni.
cuz hnya 4 0rg player jak for single game. n 4 of us suma tahap amateur jak..
nang memalukn diri jak main. tetak org nangga.. wakakaaa.
stakat nk dpt sijil jee xtually.. ngeee;)



hemmm. din n0e i tried out mcm2 events pula. lucky pula tu bole dpt medals.
huhu. nang lucky la...

wuuaaa.. da habis cutiii

oh n0 tym flies so fast
1 week is n0t enuff
i still miss h0me
the smell of my smelly kitchen
weee~
miss ian's t0uch
ian's smell
ian's v0ice
ian's cries..
miss everytink b0ut him..huhuhu



tis h0liday is the m0st fun.
i did wateva i planned t0 do.
well, except f0r the assignment thingi heee
i guess i've done m0stly everytink.. hahaa
on the 1st day we stret away went back kampung
we did a small bday party f0r ulau n uyang on saturday nyt
wic was started ar0und 10 sumtink i guess
cuz amai had t0 go back btulu again and fetch ulau n her 4 h0t frens
hoh00

then we've been to tis river near Aloi. Tasak River i recall
i din rily mandi . cuz i streten my hair a day b4. heee~><
fun! cuz ian f0llow us jg.
the best part is tat uwek ask us to pujuk aunty s0ng g btulu
n then kt0rg g mkn2 kat peace garden. amai sp0nsored..hahaa
then uwek ask amai to bring me sh0ppink
cz i t0ld her i wore the same tee twice a week. hahaa.

i guess the best part f0r uwek is tat..
i din woke up at 10 as usual
instead i jump off the bed b4 8 every monink
n i can j0ind them f0r bekfast (in fact i prepared it f0r em')
usually i will miss tat sessi0n
hahahaaa
n i spend al0t of tym in fr0nt of the kuali and sinks
hoh0ho
g0t one tym my tempoyak hangus. ngee
but the 0thers were satisfying
cz n0body c0mplaind b0ut my f0od hahahaha

but then the w0rst part for uwek as well as for amai ia tat
i spent rm150 on hair
rm200 on printer
rm100 on baju
rm100 for my ficti0ns
rm50 for pirated aut0-desk cds (i bot tw0 cz ter were al0t of em n i dunno wic one is the one mr nazeri asked us to install) plus 1 kamus(translate bm-bi,bi-bm)easy for writing pr0ject.. ngeeeeeeeeee
rm100 on unmentionable stuff
rm45 on excess luggage (my last day, flight btlu-kucg)
n 'a few bucks' f0r pocket money. kekekee
s0reeeeeeeeeeee

i miss them. i really do.
cant wait t0 c em in a few weeks tym. .
in the mean tym, i enj0y my frens c0mpanion here
love these guys t0o. ngeee. .

L O V E

When I Was Only 5 Yrs Old, U Said U Love Me...
I Asked U: "What Is It?"






When I Was 15 Yrs Old, U Said U Love Me....
I Blushed.. I Look Down And Smile..






When I Was 20 Yrs Old, U Said U Love Me..
I Put My Head On Ur Shoulder And
Hold Ur Hand.. Afraid That U Might Dissapear..






When I Was 28 Yrs Old, U Said U Love Me..
I Prepare Breakfast And Serve It In
Front Of U, And Kiss Ur Forhead N
Said : "U Better Be Quick, Is's Gonna Be Late.."








When I Was 30Yrs Old, U Said U Love Me..
I Said: "If U Really Love Me, Please
Come Back Early After Work.."







When I Was 40 Yrs Old, U Said U Love Me..
I Was Cleaning The Dining Table And
Said: "Ok Dear, But It's Time For U To Help Our Child With His/Her
Revision.."






When I Was 50 Yrs Old, U Said U Love Me..
I Was Knitting And I
Laugh At U..








When I Was 60 Yrs Old, U Said U Love Me..
I Smile At U..







When I Was 70 Yrs Old. U Said U Love Me..
We Were Sitting On The Rocking Chair With Our Glasses On.. Ure Reading
My Love Letter That I Sent To U 50 Yrs Ago..
With Our Hand Crossing Together..










When I Was 80 Yrs Old, I Said I Love U!
U Didn't Say Anything But Cried..

That Day Must Be The Happiest Day
Of Ur Life! Because I Said I Love U!

the time n0w is 3.32 in the m0nink
n i just w0ke up fr0m my deep sleep wuuaaa
ptg tadi ak pkir m0k take a nap jee
tp skali terbangun jam 2 pagi...
huuuuuuu

t0o tired last nite i guess
hihi jess pun x kejut.. perhaps she tink i was t0o tired
hoho
oh n0!! my face oily gilaaa x cuci muka td!! wuaaa
bak kata paez 0il ni da bole fry fries lg... huuueee
tp takut la nk kluar g cuci muka..
geliii tgk cerminn wuuuuuu

haiz.. ntalaaa biarlaa
who cares b0ut the 0il.. hoho
oya i dreamt b0ut baby ian just nw..
he is sure very n0ty.. dlm dream pun noty juakk
haizzzz.. nantila ulan balek
habis dia kena lenyek dgn ulan..
kikiki

ad0ii ~~ ak da cukup tdo da td
hw am i goin to sleep nw?? wuuu
sleeppppp....

went t0 hartz chicken buffet yesterday.. f0r buka puasa.. haha. it was kinda last minute f0r us tp kt0rg blasah je pegi.. kikiki.. all d chemical pe0ple went except f0r deny, darren n farhana.. h0ho. nang kenyang abes la.. my per0t pun nk terbarai da last nyt.. wuuueee..
J smpai st0machache pagi td. huhu. sian diaa.. ak lak sampai naik ntah brapa kil0.. muka pun naik brapa inci.. hihihi. gara2 mkn punya pasal .. heee=D

bf0re pegi pun ng kedak 0rg gila jak mek0rg depan faculty. snap sana snap sini. p0se pun mcm2.. heheheh. sot sot

..tgh duduk2 tgu yg lain smpai..





..muka sot sot..





..tgh tgu pakcik van angkut kt0rg..





..p0se depan keta izzati.. haha..





..dah kat dlm hartz chicken buffet..





emmmm sedapnyerrrr


balek je suma org pegang buku fluid except f0r me.. hihihi.. quiz fluid pun jwb gitu2 jak.. kehkeh...

nyways yesterday was a perfect day.. im l0vin it~~~
=D

adoi~~
feel very tired tis m0nink
luckily i have nescafe in my hand
ahahaha

supp0sedly i have fluid quiz after tis
so last nite i burn the nite 0il
readink all th0se notes
but actually i was quite tired last nite
cuz we went buka puasa 0utside 0f d campus..
so i end up scr0lling down the slide while chattin wif ejam..
kikiki
pemalas bet0l bulan ni..
jgn heran la kalo quiz kali ni ter0k ..
huhuuu

yeayy!! x lama lagi m0k cuti!!!
i x wait t0 smell the air 0f my kitchen.. hihi
tu juga yg diingat.. n0la~
xtualy x sabar m0k pel0k si damian tu..
rindu rindu rindu sma dia... wuhuhuuu. .
dgr kata makin n0ty.. ni yg suka ni..
biar ak cubit pipi dia tu puas2.. hehehe


dahla.. m0k sambung wat latihan fluid jap.
ada yg ter'blerr' tym quiz lak.. hihi.

..mentari pagi mendaki hari..
..nyanyian burung tiada henti..
..langkah-langkah kaki membawa diri..
..kehidupan bergerak dengan sendiri..
..jantung berdegup..tetap berdegup..

..terbuka mataku pada masanya..
..kosong jiwaku tiada isinya..
..teriakan nurani tiada sahutan..
..umpama anak karenahnya tidak dilayan..
..ahhh bencinya hati ini!!..
..mengapa tiada insan yang sudi..
..berhenti di sini ubati hati..
..tercari-cari olehku..
..mungkinkah ada insan sebaik itu..
..adakah?..mungkinkah?..


..tenanglah diri..
..bukankah dunia memang seperti ini?..
..manusianya hidup pelbagai ragam..
..hidupku ini belum habis..

..mengapa terlalu cepat hati menangis?..
..percayalah ia pasti berubah..
..apa yang datang tiada dapat kita duga..
..dengan izin-Nya, apa yang kau minta..
..datang jua , membuat kau tersenyum lega..

_anak-anak_

::frens::

this is me. this ph0to was taken a few m0nths ag0 , back when i was still in kml.. ngeee.
i was kn0wn as the 'black c0lour addict' tat tym.. tgk la.. haha.. everytink 0n me was black..

the 0ldest pic i hv in my drive.. wawawa.. taken when i was in f0rm 3.. the tw0 pretty lass were my best buddies.. jas (centre) aka jess0d =D.. and chin (spiky hair) aka chin0t.. haha.. b0th r different in pers0nality but they've t0t me a l0t (al0t includes gud as well as the bad things.. haha)

ni la geng keras i kat high sk00l.. since we're classmates n we're s0 ciput so we were cl0sed wif each 0ther.. n we hv 0ur business partners, the art class.. we're like br0thers n sisters.. hehee.

this is the seni0r batch 0f 07.. was taken 0n the graduati0n nyt .. haha.. everytink came 0ut tat nyt.. the mem0ries.. the tears .. the feelings .. ahaha.. nice..







taken when i was in f0rm 4. . at the b0ttom, is bai, my ex r0omate aka my angel.. ahaha. . and 0n top 0f her is sha ( my sweet 'devil') =D h0ho. yg kat bwh ak pulak feli ( my little 'devil') ehehehe.. u n0e y tey r my devils? hahaah.. cuz they've t0t me a l0t of n0ty yet fun stuff.. ahaha.





kay. these r my gals.. ehehe. kt0rg stay 1 fl0or. d0 tinks t0gtha. suma pun t0gtha2.. wuhuu!!

ter r pe0ple tat i havent menti0ned here.. my buddies 03-05.. wani .. shah .. sharah .. ain .. dini .. lily ..kelly n hani ( m0ved 0ut after 1 year..) sapa lg eyk?? eemm.. the guys, sapek .. nazwan .. aiman .. zaki .. shafiq .. n ter r sum m0re.. i'm s0rry if i didnt menti0n it.. huuu. i l0st pix 0f
th0se years. lgpun tym tu i bl0m ada kamera dgtal lg. masih guna yg filem pnya.. kikiki =p

n tis red lil missy is jani.. fr0m vietnam .. a gal wh0's inside is t0tally diff fr0m outsyd.. u may see her as a rich gal hu dun care b0ut things (tats xtualy my 1st impressi0n of hr.. hheee) but she's 360 degrees diff fr0m tat.. she cares ab0ut peps, she sppreciates pe0ple.. hoho


tats briefly b0ut my high sk0ol buddies..








hhaaha. tis 0ne pulak my tut0rmate d matrik .. ngeee. tp stil g0t afew yg missin dlm pic. h0ho..
1 w0rd to describe us.. sekepalak! ahahaa.. F2T11..

tis 0ne plak my church genk.. asal sunday je nmpk kt0rg f0rm tis grup. ngee. p arie biasa we lain2 genk.. kikiki..

haha. lya n ruth were my 1st frens in kml.. wif0ut em i'd b dead .. uhuuu.. at 1st we met regularly bt after gettin bz f0r l0tsa things, we dcided to hv 'weekly date' at any cafe on friday n0on. heee. all d g0ssips, news, n 0thas shud b shared am0ng 3 of us tym lunch tu.. hikhik.

sha .. al .. jec .. my angels in the class. whn we're t0gther we din care wat people would say b0ut us.. we did thing drastically. seri0us. haha. bt thn we nj0y evry m0ment bein 2gtha. hugs, kisses, laughs .. haiz..

n lastly these r my rumates.. heee. kak lisa .. ijat .. n pat.. yg sorg tu kira half r0omate la.. heehe. mijat. the r0om's bestfren. she's cl0se t0 all of us.. we wre like sisters livin t0gtha. haha. all wif different attitudes . ngee. but then, we l0ve each 0tha..





i l0ve my frens veryy much!!

-THE END-

l0ve_c0ffee_l0ve_me

c0ffee aka k0pi sedapnya minum k0pee it's w0rld's fav0urite drink it's like heaven nyyuuumm~~ wif0ut it .. i feel diffrent.. weak .. sleepy .. inc0mplete .. am i 0ne of the addicts??


the 0rigin : ethi0pia

c0lor : emm .. br0wn..

th0ugh my usual c0ffee wud b the instant 0ne, but havin the taste 0f it is enuf t0 make my day energized .. ma buddies t0ld me it's x gud f0r my health but my b0dy cudnt resists it.. wuaaaa... it's like a piece 0f cigarrate ..

but when the time c0mes.. i will st0p takin it f0r awhile.. it is xtually , seri0usly bad f0r health.. its x bcuz 0f the c0ffee but the caffeine in it.. h0hoh0..

but c0ffee is still the best.. yes ..

"black as the devil, h0t as hell, pure as an angel, sweet as love" the recipe 0f c0ffee acc0rdin t0 Talleyrand (1754-1838).

Lil' things u shud n0e b0ut girls...

When a girl bumps into your
arm
while walking she wants
you to hold her hand

When she wants a hug
she will just stand there

When u break a girls heart,
she still feels it when
u run into each other 3 years later

When a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running through
her
mind.

When a girl is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply.

When a girl looks at you with eyes
full of
questions,
she is wondering how long you will be
around.

When a girl answers, "I'm fine, "
after a
few seconds,
she is not at all fine.

When a girl stares at you,
she is wondering why you are so
wonderful.

When a girl lays her head on your
chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers
forever.

When a girl says that she can't live
without you,
she has made up her mind that you are
her future.

When a girl says, "I miss you, "
no one in this world can miss you more
than that

When a girl is mean to you after abreakup
she wants you back, but she's
scared she'll get hurt and knows
you're gone forever